Thursday, July 19, 2007
Ok I finally heard from "him" today. It has been over ten days. The last email was all about how he wasnt feeling well, his dr found skin cancer- which can be serious etc etc. SO when i didnt hear from him i thought something was wrong. Nope he went on vaca to Egypt. Had a blast. Told me he was reading up on my notes and that i sounded up and down. Told me to buck up everyhitns will be fine. BUCK-UP?????WTF???Who syas that to a woman? And who is smoking the bad crack here? I couldnt believe it. I responded to him with this" You are such a man". That was it. Nothing more. Never emialed him like that . And have never been at a loss for wordsa with him either. I always loved emailing hime and telling him about stuff. But after that i was completely speechless. And what makes it worse he never even said anything about my birhtday!! Nothing. Is this typical guy or what? Ass maybe??? I get what i deserve. Ok so after i calmed down i did email him more. Just told him i missed him and that i was disappointed about not hearing from him on bday. Hey that is what woman love. Childish, immature i dont care. I love to hear little wishes notes on my bday. I also told him that he could be a little more understanding that i am starting a business. got two kids., work part-time just moved into this hous etc. and he is far away havent seen him since march=( Could he maybe be a little more understanding. I dont know i think that i am totally stuck inthe past. It is never going to be like it was. My feelings for him are not the same as what he feels for me. I hate this. I like it the way it was. Oh well. Chocolate cake awaits me.